Who will be my backstop?

I have always had someone to back me up. At work, it was someone more experienced or older that I looked to and modeled. As a parent of course I looked to my Mom. It has always made me slightly uncomfortable to be the sage. I like having someone to look to for direction and advice. I asked my Mom today (while in tears I might add), who would I go to-who would I look to. Who would guide me? She told me I was ready. I don't feel ready. I don't want to be ready-I want to have her behind me-she has always made me feel safe. It is strange that right now, I need her more than ever and in typical fashion-once again, she is showing me the way through one of the hardest times in my life. Go figure-she still has my back.