Growing Up

I was out of town last week at a class. it was really intense, but I learned alot. It was strange being away by myself for a week and learning so many new things, but having no other responsibilities other than myself. I almost forgot what that was like. I liked it, but missed being with my family. I love my life, but it was nice to have a change. Sort of a vacation from my whole life. Yesterday was the first day of school. It was the first time since I have had kids, that I did not walk or drive someone to school. They just got in the car and left. I am seeing how little they need me now. They used to need me for everything. I guess that it is a good thing and I will get used to it. It does not seem to be happening gradually though. It seem like last week I had 2 car seats and a diaper bag. I remember the day I said, "get in the car and lets go" and they just grabbed their coats and jumped in and fastened their seat belts. Now they are driving and there are parts of their lives that I don't know anything about. It is surreal to think that in a few short years, they will be independent adults. I have glimpses of it now and then and I like the people that I see. I hope that I have been a good mother and pray that I will be the mother that they need to become the adults that they will be.