UGGGGHHHHH

Today was a tough one. My Mom got her diagnosis. It is pretty bad, but also surreal. The words are what has changed. She looks the same as she did yesterday and still laughs and talks, and cries...just like yesterday. But the words have changed. There is so much power in words. Love is a powerful word. I hope that the love of her husband, children and family will help carry her through this. I hope that her love for all of us will help to ease the path that we will be on. We are where we are. It sounds ridiculous, but it is true. We can't be anywhere else. In all of this, I am grateful for the life I have had. I thought as a child that my mother was the most powerful person in the world. I did not see her as having any human frailty. She has always been able to overcome what appeared to be insurmountable odds and challenges. I think that part of what I would like to do here is tell the story of our family and what it was and is like to be us. I will start tomorrow. Tonight, I am going to have a good cry and go to bed.